Mind thinking, heart feeling, swaying with the disorder

Untitled by DS, 2013, Pastel on Fabriano paper, 24" x 36"

Untitled by DS, 2013, Pastel on Fabriano paper, 24″ x 36″

“It’s me in the middle, seeking balance. The  balance between having fun and working hard, making money.  The  waves of color are the emotions and the outside factors, the tasks and the criticisms both the good and bad. The waves are not just coming into me. They are going in all over. It all comes down to where you put the emotions and discovering what is best for me. Is this good or is that?  It’s me, becoming bolder, becoming able to take all the waves of emotion with patience.”

My client is a young twenty-something navigating through the world. She is questioning who she is and what she wants to do. She is searching for her authentic self, a self created not by cultural or parental pressures. In this inquiry, she feels out of control, “swaying in the disorder”.   Continue reading

Gall bladder and confusion

Confusion by Edmund S, 2013. Pastel on Fabriano paper, 24" X 36"

Confusion by Edmund S, 2013. Pastel on Fabriano paper, 24″ X 36″

My family on my father’s side seems to be made of “rebellious”  thinkers. (Read blogpost titled, “I reduce…”, November, 7th, 2013.) My second uncle arrived to his Bodyscapes session with only one word not the suggested three. He was 45 minutes late and could stay only one hour of the two hour session. As a Bodyscapes facilitator, I observe people orchestrating themselves around their fears of looking deeply into the meanings of our illnesses.  I informed my client we could work on either a poem or a drawing.  “I have shoulder pain for over twenty years, gout and my gall bladder was just removed. That’s a lot to draw in an hour,” he said. But, I assured.   “We can get it in. I am a very good art teacher.” I was not going to let him off the hook.  Continue reading